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Posted: Aug 06 2008 12:12 am

Ever had the feeling that the world sucks at one moment and everything is just depressing and you're trying to find something worth living for and there seems like there is nothing, so you don't want to live but at the same time don't want to die?

Title: Alexz Aficionado Joined: May 21 2008 Posts: 2889

Every time I watch Christina Aguilera try to sing.

Posted: Aug 06 2008 12:22 am

lol, it was slightly more of a serious topic than that, but good point

From Despair To Where by Manic Street Preachers describes the feeling pretty well, except that I don't want to die, I just don't want to be but at the same time I want to. Kind of a Catch 22.

Posted: Aug 06 2008 12:24 am

sounds to me like someone is a saaaad panda

Title: Alexz Aficionado Joined: May 21 2008 Posts: 2889

anorexorcist wrote:

lol, it was slightly more of a serious topic than that, but good point

You think I'm not being serious? Smile

Posted: Aug 06 2008 12:53 am

username wrote:

sounds to me like someone is a saaaad panda

I don't want to die or anything, but I don't particularily look forward to waking up every morning.

Posted: Aug 06 2008 12:56 am

Life gets difficult, but I understand what you are saying.

Gonna whip out the old "Movie Quote-o-Matic" and quote T2:

No fate but what we make.

Posted: Aug 06 2008 12:56 am

anorexorcist wrote:

username wrote:

sounds to me like someone is a saaaad panda

I don't want to die or anything, but I don't particularily look forward to waking up every morning.

read about existentialism and absurdism. that might help a bit. at least it'll give you some perspective since you are just going thru the same feelings 90% of the world has gone thru. so, no, you're not alone, but you're not unique in that aspect either.

you're not special, but you're not crap. you just are.

Posted: Aug 06 2008 01:23 am

ya, i know what you're saying, i didnt think i was special because i feel that way, just wondering if anyone here did.

I just feel like my chest will explode sometimes, too many emotions that i cant control going through my mind, things i have no say in

Title: Alexz Aficionado Joined: May 21 2008 Posts: 2889

anorexorcist wrote:

I just feel like my chest will explode sometimes, too many emotions that i cant control going through my mind, things i have no say in

Let go of things you have no control over.

Posted: Aug 06 2008 01:34 am

I try but everything comes back to me. Like i hada crush on this girl that became my friends gf and im friends with her and i dont know if i feel more or not, i dont know how i'll handle things as their relationship progresses that's one example, i have no control over that.

lol reading on absurdism almost makes me feel worse, reading existentialism stuff now

"The game of life is hard to play
I'm gonna lose it anyway"

Seriously, fuck, the feeling is unbearable, I know others feel it but im different because i dont handle it the same, i can't take it.

Posted: Aug 06 2008 06:54 am

I'm hooked on a feeling.

Posted: Aug 06 2008 02:47 pm

can i borrow a feeling?

Posted: Aug 06 2008 03:51 pm

I never really have a reason for waking up, but that's why I find one. You have to find a reason to wake up because if you don't you might as well be dead.

Posted: Aug 06 2008 05:37 pm

maybe you should buy a new game

Joined: Jul 16 2006 Location: 22 Acacia Avenue Posts: 324

Can you lend me a jar of love?

Posted: Aug 06 2008 05:55 pm

Yeah, I've felt that way before. I tend to shake it by just deciding that if I don't have control over it, let it go. If I do, fix it no matter how much the prospect of that sucks at the time. I guarantee the week or so of total anguish will subside and sunny skies will be a-callin'.

Joined: Aug 13 2008 Location: Watertown, NY Posts: 131

A good way to determine whether or not your life is worth living is to ask yourself the following question; Do I have the time, ability, and inclination to piss and moan about how depressed I am over the internet?

If the answer to this question is "yes," CONGRATULATIONS! You have a life worth living. Generally, whining about life on the internet means you've got nothing legitimate to bitch about. The WORST of your problems is that some girl you like is fucking your friend. You've had so much happiness in your life that you've had time to develop an addiction. You're not getting your fix right now, so you're going through happiness withdrawl. Don't worry though, the worst symptoms will generally pass within 3 to 4 days. After that, you've kicked the habit.

You're not SUPPOSED to feel good about life all the time. For that matter, you're not supposed to feel good about life even MOST of the time. It's a treat, a delicacy. It's something you get on special occasions, and in fairly small doses. Like a child who scarfs his whole candy bar in one bite, and then demands some of his friend's, you've gobbled up all your happiness improvidently. If you didn't take the time to really savor it, to appreciate every last little bit, that's your own damn fault.

Posted: Aug 13 2008 12:22 pm

That sounds mostly accurate.

Although that feeling isn't a once in a while thing. I havn't had more happiness than most people, so that's pretty far off base, but other than that, solid.

Joined: Aug 24 2005 Location: Mount Holly, NJ Posts: 1062

Ano, dude, homie... listen.

I remember this conversation a few weeks back. Someone (maybe you?) was talking about how they were feeling like shit here on the forums. Talking about how depressed they were and how life had no meaning. And while I understand the comfort associated with the purple and black, I can't help but think your focusing your energy in the wrong direction.

Normally, if someone complains about their life via the internet, I'm inclined to roll my eyes, call them emo, and go have a turkey sandwich. MJL hit the nail on the head... although everyone's problems seem huge in their eyes, we're all pretty well off in the grand scheme of things.
On here, though, I like to think we have our own little warped community, and while we give each other shit every now and again, we're all generally well liked by one another (save the infamous RegalSin and Tish). As such, I have some pause in disregarding a quasi-I'm-going-to-hurt-myself threat on these forums, whether it's serious or not.

So... here's what you do (which is a repeated version of the advice given the last time this happened on here)...

Stop using the forums as a serious form of therapy and go get yourself a psychologist/psychiatrist that is qualified to talk to you, diagnose, and help you. Neither I, nor anyone else on here (I would guess), mind listening to each other's problems. But there comes a point where you need to take your life into your own hands, man up, and get some fucking help from someone that can do more than send semi-advice in a discussion forum.

Trust me, dude, I'm not saying all this to be a dick. In my book, venting is healthy and a-o-k. But if you want your life to be better, seriously better, stop typing to people you have never met, are unqualified to help, and may actually end up unintentionally doing more harm for you than good. Be proactive. Go get help. For real.

You goddam emo. Just kidding. Laughing

Posted: Aug 13 2008 02:49 pm

and welcome to the forums mjl1783

Joined: Aug 13 2008 Location: Watertown, NY Posts: 131

Thanks, username, I appreciate that. Anorexorcist, I'm going to be crude for a moment, but I'm also going to share with you my grand philosophy of life.

Have you ever had to take a dump really badly, but couldn't find a bathroom? I mean where you're SUFFERING because you've got to go so badly, where you're actually entertaining the idea of evacuating into your own pants just to make this incredibly horrible sensation go away? C'mon, you know you have, we all have. It's terrible, one of the worst feelings in the world. But what happens, you FIND that bathroom, hastily drop trou, and let loose that dump with jet engine force. Relief permeates every inch of your being. A very heavy burden instantly vanishes from your beleaguered soul. Every little inane worry, stress factor, phobia, or anxiety you have about ANYTHING disappears for a small moment. You just pooped, and damned if it wasn't satisfying.

Generally, pooping is NOT a satisfying activity. It's inconvenint, sometimes difficult, and always gross. But, if preceded by some intense discomfort and desperation, it can produce the most absolutely pure feeling of contentment achievable by humankind. Life, like pooping, simply can never be enjoyed if it is always comfortable, always easy, and never urgent.

Posted: Aug 13 2008 05:59 pm

mjl1783 wrote:

Thanks, username, I appreciate that. Anorexorcist, I'm going to be crude for a moment, but I'm also going to share with you my grand philosophy of life.

Have you ever had to take a dump really badly, but couldn't find a bathroom? I mean where you're SUFFERING because you've got to go so badly, where you're actually entertaining the idea of evacuating into your own pants just to make this incredibly horrible sensation go away? C'mon, you know you have, we all have. It's terrible, one of the worst feelings in the world. But what happens, you FIND that bathroom, hastily drop trou, and let loose that dump with jet engine force. Relief permeates every inch of your being. A very heavy burden instantly vanishes from your beleaguered soul. Every little inane worry, stress factor, phobia, or anxiety you have about ANYTHING disappears for a small moment. You just pooped, and damned if it wasn't satisfying.

Generally, pooping is NOT a satisfying activity. It's inconvenint, sometimes difficult, and always gross. But, if preceded by some intense discomfort and desperation, it can produce the most absolutely pure feeling of contentment achievable by humankind. Life, like pooping, simply can never be enjoyed if it is always comfortable, always easy, and never urgent.

that made a lot more sense that it should've

Posted: Aug 14 2008 02:43 am

username wrote:

mjl1783 wrote:

Thanks, username, I appreciate that. Anorexorcist, I'm going to be crude for a moment, but I'm also going to share with you my grand philosophy of life.

Have you ever had to take a dump really badly, but couldn't find a bathroom? I mean where you're SUFFERING because you've got to go so badly, where you're actually entertaining the idea of evacuating into your own pants just to make this incredibly horrible sensation go away? C'mon, you know you have, we all have. It's terrible, one of the worst feelings in the world. But what happens, you FIND that bathroom, hastily drop trou, and let loose that dump with jet engine force. Relief permeates every inch of your being. A very heavy burden instantly vanishes from your beleaguered soul. Every little inane worry, stress factor, phobia, or anxiety you have about ANYTHING disappears for a small moment. You just pooped, and damned if it wasn't satisfying.

Generally, pooping is NOT a satisfying activity. It's inconvenint, sometimes difficult, and always gross. But, if preceded by some intense discomfort and desperation, it can produce the most absolutely pure feeling of contentment achievable by humankind. Life, like pooping, simply can never be enjoyed if it is always comfortable, always easy, and never urgent.

that made a lot more sense that it should've

Wow, fucking agreed.

lol that was a great way of putting it.

I'm not seeking help here, I feel alright now. I was seeing a psychologist but don't go back till later august, I was just venting how I feel because I needed to get it out but didn't feel I could tell anyone of my friends, I beleive I can now.

Just to inform anyone, my life is no in danger at the hands of myself in anyway. Sometimes I don't want to live, but I would not hurt myself, it doesn't help it makes shit worse, I just wonder what the point is sometimes.

Posted: Aug 14 2008 10:25 am

I really believe this thread could have been a successful tv show, ending with " And another day ends well for all "