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Gallery 2 · Posted: Jan 25 2011 09:01 pm

I have self-consciousness issues.

When I could once draw whatever I wanted despite of who was around, as of late I have to literally hide in order to something as simple as a sketch to be done.

I can only estimate that probably because I've been observed by a materialistic bunch (not giving names, but obviously people I have to deal with in person) which have been extremely judgemental to the point that as long that if I'm not making "millions" off it (or "work for them") then it equals to a complete waste of time. I of course fought it off, but it seems that being subjected to that for years had affected me subconsciously after all.

And indeed it might've been that, since for instance, when I was at SCAD it was a safe haven for me, as I wasn't judged for what I drew, but rather offer constructive criticism of my style as a whole.

Now that I've addressed the problem, the question is: "what to do now?"

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Posted: Jan 26 2011 01:22 am

Drawing and sketching is a very fun and relaxing activity. I need to get back into it, but I always used to listen to music and let my creativity flow, and other optimistic and rainbowy statements.

I relate to you in that it's a bit of a personal activity for me, and I enjoy privacy whenever I sketch. If your peers/observers/Big Brother-esque dictators can't understand or respect your privacy, then you should not blame yourself, but at the same time they should understand that it's simply something you like to do. I don't fully understand how the materialism bit plays into this, but if they think you're wasting time or something of similar effect, that's quite a shame since everyone needs their own personal time or activity; not everything is about generating money.

Not that you need to tell me, but the irony of this whole thing is now I'm curious as to what you're sketching. You don't need to tell me, of course, but I'm just wondering if you're doing everyday doodles or super-bizarre-disturbing works.

'Cause stuff like that image WILL make people stare if they observe you drawing it.

Joined: Oct 01 2009 Posts: 5316

I'm the same way, but I always use that to boost myself in other ways. I'm a naturally creative and philosophical person, so I figure it's only natural to question yourself.

Posted: Jan 26 2011 07:06 am

Just continue to find privacy where you can draw and let loose away from those people until you can be away from them permanently. Get a regular job in the meantime and start saving up in order to move out on your own as soon as possible; or alternatively, start applying to art colleges that'll take you out of that house.

The answer is relatively simple: Just get away from those people.

Joined: Jun 29 2010 Posts: 1818

I used to have that problem, but I've recently reached a nirvana-like state of not giving a shit what random people think of the stuff I draw.
I do have a huge problem drawing near friends and people I know, mostly because I like to draw some weird stuff.
Drawing for money is overrated, trust me. There are only two types of hired artist. Either you're working for someone, and hence have no creative freedom on what you are doing, or you draw the stuff you like for free so well that people throw money at you. If you're not making any money off your work, you're on the right road to become the second type of people I mentioned, so keep it up.