I didn't know Hacker (or anyone here, really) very well, but I still feel a bit of emptiness in his passing.
So long, Hacker. Rest in peace.
It is a waste of politeness to be courteous to the devil ~ William L. Garrison
HardcoreGamer4Ever
Title: I Am The God Of Awesome
Joined: Jun 28 2010
Location: Your Mom's Vagina!
Posts: 1295
Posted:
Dec 14 2014 12:51 am
Oh wow, this really sucks. I can't believe that this has happened. It seems so unreal to me, like some sort of dream.
If there's an afterlife, I hope Hacker knows that he will be missed by everyone on the forums. He truly was the heart and soul of this forum. He loved this site more than anybody I know, possibly even more than Syd. He was always offering advice to bring the site back to glory, even becoming a moderator to help out with the technical issues. I admire that kind of devotion.
More importantly, he was a funny, intelligent, friendly soul. I wish I would have talked to him more and gotten to know him better. There will always be a gaping hole left in his absence, even if the forum gets double the popularity of its prime.
Rest In Peace, Hacker. You may be gone, but you will never be forgotten. We will always miss you, dude.
Wow, just wow. I have not visited these parts for a while, but for some reason this morning told me to check in on the very first forum I ever joined. When I slowed down coming on here, I remember Hacker as the youngest forum member who took his shots with great stride, seemed always able to laugh at himself despite his disadvantage amongst the wiser, more clever and older members.
Now I see this. What a loss, and a tragic way to end one's life. As someone who has first hand experience with suicide it is truly unimaginable the pain it causes to all those left behind. Also as a new parent, I hope that I will never have to face the day that my child gives up all hope because I can only imagine the guilt and anguish his parents must feel.
Scott, you were a good kid, and one that I remember always as having the thickest of skin. I wish you were here now for you to see how much your were not alone, and how much worth you really had. Fair winds and following seas brother, tell the jarheads at the gate that ol Ash Burton said you were cleared for entry.
joshwoodzy wrote:
Ash is probably just home humping his SNES collection.
Methid Man
Title: Spawn of Billy Mays
Joined: Nov 23 2010
Location: Hackensack, NJ
Posts: 540
Posted:
Dec 15 2014 10:17 am
Oh my God... I feel so late finding this out now but damn, I can't believe this...
I barely knew Hacker but even I'm crying a little right now. I'm already feeling some regret over not having posted here a little more as soon as he told us all about his financial situation. I really hope there is an afterlife and I really hope he's in a place where he's getting a much better deal than what he got here. I really need to post here more often...
RIP man...you will be missed...
Syd Lexia
Site Admin
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Posts: 24869
Posted:
Dec 15 2014 10:29 am
Ross Rifle wrote:
Great lyrics Syd. So my singer and I went to Jam Night on Thursday and we played an acoustic version of this song, which I dedicated to Scotty.
I'm sorry to hear of Hacker's passing. It's tough to see with someone so young. Hopefully he finds piece. I know I had very little interaction with him, but he touched lives, even if in a small way.
I'm not a psychopath. I'm a high-functioning sociopath.
I'm pretty sure that they read binary in Hacker's version of heaven.
DarknessDeku
Title: Deku Scrub
Joined: Dec 08 2007
Location: The Forest
Posts: 3280
Posted:
Dec 15 2014 08:24 pm
Ross Rifle wrote:
Great lyrics Syd. So my singer and I went to Jam Night on Thursday and we played an acoustic version of this song, which I dedicated to Scotty.
Great video.
Knyte
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Title: Curator Of The VGM
Joined: Nov 01 2006
Location: Here I am.
Posts: 6749
Posted:
Dec 16 2014 01:31 am
I got the news last night through Steam chat. And... wow... I don't know what to say. I haven't been around in awhile, but I still consider you all one of my "Kliqs". Like a group of geeky friends whom I can hang out with, and never feel judged and generally accepted for just being me. I hope in Hacker's life, this place was a solace for him as well.
My hopes and best wishes go out to all who are affected by Hacker's untimely passing of this world. At that age, your life has barely started. It can also be the hardest time of one's life. Suddenly, the ease and structure of childhood is gone, and you are suddenly thrown into the real world, and realize that all those years of school really didn't prepare you for all the responsibilities that are suddenly thrust upon you. You are at a huge crossroad, and the choices you make, have an impact on the rest of your life.
I hope all of you have friends and family who can lend you a shoulder when you need it most, and that no matter how bad things may seem, you NEVER have to face it alone. I promise you, that there is ALWAYS someone out there, who will be willing to listen.
Much Love, everyone.
- Knyte
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Title: owner of a lonely heart
Joined: Jul 06 2007
Location: phoenix, az usa
Posts: 16123
Posted:
Dec 17 2014 01:13 am
UsaSatsui wrote:
wow.... reading this was rough. RIP again young man
I guess I'm still in the denial stage. I had just got back into town from a trip and heard about it through the Midnight Crew chat. Took awhile to remember to come here because this is where it all started for all of us.
Me and Hacker and an interesting relationship via Sydlexia/IRC. I remember when he first joined this site as Zelda_God way back and the amount of shit he posted that annoyed myself and others; but he stuck around and proved to be one of my favorite Sydlexians.
He reminded me of myself when I was his age. I was just as obnoxious, misguided and confused as he was but goddammit he was a smart, compassionate good kid. Just fucking pissed at him and to be honest pissed at myself.
I usually don't take the internet seriously and I trolled the fuck out of him., especially his religion and talked to him many times about the Mormon religion after sticking enough knives into him to start actually talking to him about it on a personal level out of guilt. I have some personal experience with Mormonism and can't help but think that this may have contributed to his suicide.
I recently struggled with some very real personal problems myself, and had talked with him on the phone a few times. The first thing he asked me is if I was okay...
That was a great article Syd. It could have been posted several years ago, and I wouldn't have noticed a change in the writing at all.
DarknessDeku
Title: Deku Scrub
Joined: Dec 08 2007
Location: The Forest
Posts: 3280
Posted:
Dec 18 2014 08:23 pm
Beautiful video you linked Probable Muppet.
We all could have helped Hacker, but didn't know he was having suicidal feelings. Maybe we should be more helpful to people in the future to prevent this from happening to anybody else.
i'll_bite_your_ear wrote:
DarknessDeku is already assimilated by the bots.
He knows your algorithm.
anorexorcist
Title: Polar Bear
Joined: May 21 2008
Location: The Cock and Plucket
Posts: 2131
Posted:
Dec 18 2014 11:43 pm
I found out about this tonight, it's a bit bothersome that I've been to busy lately to even find out until now. Others have already said things that came to my mind, and said them better than I can. Maybe he was annoying to a people at first, but he quickly grew on most forum members, especially in the IRC. I had spoken with him back when I frequented the IRC, and while I didn't interact with him on the same level of others, I remember him always greeting everyone as soon as the entered the IRC and often asked how they were doing. He was a good kid that genuinely cared about people. This news saddens me greatly. As a person who has experience with mental illness, you wish you knew and that some how you could have used your experience to help him.
Rest in Peace Hacker.
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GeorgeTaylor
Title: Miss Madness 99
Joined: Sep 09 2012
Posts: 222
Posted:
Dec 19 2014 12:53 am
That video of Scott that Muppet posted made me feel really sad and how his death finally hit me.
For some reason Hacker reminded me of Charlie from the Perks of Being a Wallflower.
I can't help but think that the way Hacker's personality was the way it was because he had something bad happen to him as a child that he was repressing similar to the character in this movie.
Also great article Syd. I think you could shut the site down and it would leave the perfect lasting legacy of this place for the ages.
Ross Rifle
Title: Rock N Roll God
Joined: Oct 29 2006
Location: Chilliwack, BC
Posts: 4844
Posted:
Dec 19 2014 01:36 am
Well, as devastated as I have been over his passing, it took reading the new article for me to finally break down and cry. It was very touching Syd, and very well written. Hacker would have been so honored.
I lost someone earlier this year, all I know it was an accident, but her husband uploaded a video to serve as a virtual wake. I was contemplating doing something similar, though I don't see much of a reason after watching that video muppet linked to.
The shot of him as a baby passed out by the N64 really hit me with how young he was.
"Life is a waste of time. Time is a waste of life. Get wasted all the time, and you'll have the time of your life!"
@om*d
Title: Dorakyura
Joined: Jul 10 2010
Location: Castlevania
Posts: 4224
Posted:
Dec 19 2014 12:04 pm
That video was a nice tribute, thanks for posting it here. It just really hits you seeing all of the things he did growing up and all of that potential that will never be. Way too young to go. It looks like his family loved him very much and I hope they can find whatever support they need moving forward. Parents should never have to bury their children.
JoshWoodzy
Joined: May 22 2008
Location: Goshen, VA
Posts: 6544
Posted:
Dec 19 2014 05:36 pm
That video that Muppet posted was actually devastating, holy shit.
I guess it really doesn't hit you on a personal level until you see pictures from a person's whole existence right in front of you, flashing by in a few seconds here and there, personal moments, family moments, etc.. It really hurt my heart to see all that, and I can't imagine the pain his family is going through.
I can be a bit of a dick and a cynical hard ass most of the time, but I'm not a monster. That kid will be missed deeply by way more people than he or his family would probably ever realize. I legit got extremely sad after watching that.
Gonna post this video montage of Hacker's life for posterity again just in case someone accidentally skips past Probable Muppets post. I dunno how to get it to imbed.
Gonna post this video montage of Hacker's life for posterity again just in case someone accidentally skips past Probable Muppets post. I dunno how to get it to imbed.
