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Joined: Aug 05 2008 Location: CA Posts: 867

For said propensity and out of respect:

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This is still devastating to me...

Posted: Mar 18 2015 12:06 pm

So the other day I got a little freaked out. I have Scott on my 3DS friend list. If any of you have him on yours, you can check the following to confirm, because it says the last time they were online, up to 10 days.

I haven't deleted Scott from my Friend List, and every once in a while when I scroll through I see his Mii and think about him for a few moments. Last week all of a sudden he had a Favorite Title selected. It was Ocarina of Time 3D. Previously, he had never chosen a favorite title and it was always blank. I thought that was weird, but chocked it up to a possible error before that made it so his Favorite title never loaded or something. I don't know.

Then, a few days ago, he was online! For about half a second I had an adrenaline rush thinking, "I knew it! It was a prank. That asshole!".

But of course, most likely somebody is now using his 3DS, but they haven't changed the Mii or name. His Friend List message now reads "givingacc to bro". I kind of wish they's change his Mii and name so I could just delete him.

I don't suppose anyone knows the story here, but if you do I'd be interested.

Joined: Sep 22 2008 Posts: 289

So I haven't posted here in years, so I hope you guys don't mind my posting out of the blue, but I just came back on a whim and saw this wanted to belatedly give my condolences and thoughts. I remember hacker (and I think I was here when he was still zelda_god), and he was a pleasure. Rest in Peace.

Joined: Oct 19 2009 Location: Canada Posts: 10

I feel terrible bringing this back up for everyone, but I felt I should post something..

I haven't been around in a while (which, I'm sure, has come to be expected of me), but I often talked to Scott on Skype, and he was one person I could be assured would talk to me on IRC whenever I did visit. It's horrible to say... But I had no idea about any of this. I missed taking to him for a bit and figured I'd stumble around Sydlexia and stumbled upon the news... I didn't know him all that well, but it took me a while to get up to posting anything. I just wanted to acknowledge what a good guy he was and that he really is missed. I wish things could be different, but hope that he has found peace.

Posted: Aug 06 2015 08:28 am

He's actually gone...

He was always fun to converse with on the IRC and he always came off as being chipper and empathetic. I had no idea that he had passed.

Title: Titlating Joined: Dec 17 2007 Posts: 5042

So,

I was bored at work today. I had lots of downtime and decided to fire up the phone and look at the ol dislexia forums. See if there have had any life breathed into them. So I'm scrolling and I notice this thread. I click it thinking its some silly joke or something " oh hacker what did he do now" then I go in. ...

This is devastating. This really bothers me and I can't explain why. I didn't know the dude that well I didn't even know his last name until I saw the thread. Is it because I haven't been on here actively in years? Maybe I could have done something. I was a young dude on the Internet too. Broke, lost, depressed. I was there. He was just a kid when he joined here man, this forum was his life. I want to take back the years and play ds with him. Tell him it gets better. Something man, shit! This is brutal. I am sorry to re-earth this thread. I hope you are all ok and I'm not redigging old wounds. I would have just been remissed if I hadnt done something and said something.

Posted: Oct 02 2015 08:56 am

Hey buddy, I saw your Facebook post. I think we all searched our brains, trying to think of anything mean we may have said or anything positive we could have said. We can't be dwelling on that though. It's been a tough 10 months, but a lot of us have reconnected and came back to the forum for a little while had a little reunion. I think Hack would have loved that.

I was going through depression and anxiety while I was an active member too. I think when it comes down to it, no matter how far we've drifted, or how long we've gone without talking, this forum is our twisted little family, our exclusive club, and our band of brothers (and sisters). I don't think that any relationship that has been important to you, helped you through hard times, and remained a part of who you are shouldn't be discounted just because you haven't seen each other's faces. There was a time when you guys were my only friends, and I'll never forget that.

This Full House moment is now done Razz

Posted: Oct 03 2015 01:18 am

I'd have to say the same. Though I didn't post nearly as frequently as others, I loved reading the forums and occasionally throwing my hat into the ring. Back when I was more active here I was going through a lot of rough patches in my life, and the people on the board and the IRC really helped with that. I'm glad a lot of the old board members are still around. It makes me happy to know that a place that I came to when I was troubled is still going in some way.

Joined: May 22 2008 Location: Goshen, VA Posts: 6544

I'm cynical as fuck and hate almost everything but I have a soft spot for most of you whiny bitches. Hi, whiny bitches. I miss you.

Title: The Self-Titler Joined: Aug 14 2010 Posts: 598

JoshWoodzy wrote:

I'm cynical as fuck and hate almost everything but I have a soft spot for most of you whiny bitches. Hi, whiny bitches. I miss you.

Appreciated.

This is a pretty fucking sad annual update for me.

Posted: Dec 08 2015 10:53 am

Wow. It's been a year since we lost him. I've had a record-breaking shit year, and I'm not gonna lie, I've considered what Hack did a few times. But I thought about my family, friends, all of you guys. It definitely helped. I'll move past my shit, and I'll be ok, but life is hard sometimes. I hate that Hack ended things the way he did, but it's been incredible seeing the kind of effect he had on people. I'm rambling because I haven't had coffee yet. Sorry guys. I miss you Hacker.

Posted: Dec 08 2015 05:28 pm

Always remember the times we had, Ross. Namely, your birthday and that random encounter at the passport office.

Joined: Oct 19 2009 Location: Nashville, TN Posts: 1479

Hey Ross, I'm so sorry to hear you've been having an extended rough patch. And I'm glad that you've got a support network in friends and family to help you through.

To you and anyone else who might be reading this, if things get so bad you feel like there's no other way, please give the suicide hotline a call at 1 (800) 273-8255.

Hacker, may you continue to rest in peace.

Posted: Dec 09 2015 12:55 pm

Well if it's any consolation I think you're fucking awesome, Ross. Definitely in my top 20 active posters at the moment.

Damn, a year? I clicked on that video at the top of this thread and lasted about 30 seconds. Ugh.

Posted: Dec 10 2015 01:08 am

Hey, thanks a lot guys. I didn't want to hijack Hacker's thread, so I'll probably post my own thread when I get some time in the next few days.

Posted: Dec 10 2015 01:40 am

I think Ross just made a veiled suicide threat. CALL THE NUMBER, ROSS.

Posted: Dec 10 2015 02:33 am

Oh jeez hahaha. Awkward.

Posted: Dec 23 2015 01:03 pm

So, I was looking through my Steam friends and groups, trying to tell who was who and who to purge, and I saw Socialist_Sophie, which was FigNewton, who was one of my best friends and whom I haven't heard from in years. I clicked on his profile, and looking at it, I saw his friends on the side, and one of them was Hacker, and next to his name it said "Last Online: 396 days ago". So now I'm sitting here crying, and I want the few of you that are left to know I miss you. My life has had a few rough patches since I left, and I'll never forget how much of an impact this site made on me. I joined when I was 12, and throughout all of middle and high school, whenever people were shitty, when I had no real life friends to turn to, you guys were here for me. I'm 20 now, and I miss you. I miss everyone so much, and I just want those of you who are still here to know that, and know that I love this site, and I love you. You're my family.

Posted: Dec 24 2015 06:17 pm

A year...it's hard to believe it's been that long already. Even now, Hacker is bringing people together. RIP Scott, you will never be forgotten. Also, I miss you bastards too; the crazy one and the rest Smile

I actually found some old forum battle stuff on my computer today from all the way back in 2010, so of course I had the urge to come back. Lots of good times have been had with you guys and gals on this site and I cherish them to this day. Merry Christmas, ya filthy animals.

Joined: Aug 05 2008 Location: CA Posts: 867

This still tears me apart, especially after taking to him on the phone a few days before it happened. Also, can't believe it has been over a year now. No more Sydlexians do this please.

RIP Hacker...

Posted: Dec 25 2015 01:25 am

I might have said this earlier, but I wish I'd realized sooner that that number he wrote was his cell number.

Posted: Dec 29 2015 01:27 am

@Rein Every once in a long while I reread some of the Forum Battle stuff. Remember when you ate brains? Those were some great times.

Title: Miss Madness 99 Joined: Sep 09 2012 Posts: 222

I honestly think we have grieved enough. This coming from a Cancer man who is already emotional and sentimental as fuck about everything.

I feel like this topic should locked away somewhere because it just makes me depressed as I feel like he was a good kid who just needed a place to live to get his shit together and no one wanted to REALLY help him, including his family. I can tell he was one of those kids who everyone else knows is well behaved,humble and well intentioned but his parents think he is a problem child. I see the same kind of kids in weird military families. Sorry I don't know his family but I just get a vibe like they were religious douches just based on how he took punishment from some people and still had a good attitude about it.

Dad- "Scotty your 18 and graduated from High School, Time to get a job if you want to live in this house and quit playing those damn video games!"

Scotty- "But Dad I just finished High School, can I have some time to figure out what I want to do with my life."

Dad- " Not under this roof.When I was your age I was working 80 hours a week. I didn't have time for games. If you want to keep living in this house you gotta pay me rent."

I absolutely despise people who do their kids that way. I could be totally wrong but I have a feeling im not......

If Hacker would have lived he would have ended up with a nice wife and two kids and a good job as a aircraft mechanic and a paid off truck. I honestly feel that in my heart.

On the brightside he is in heaven getting to play the Nintendo NX suckas!

Posted: Dec 29 2015 01:35 pm

I paid off my car a few months ago. It's not as satisfying as everyone says it is.

Posted: Dec 29 2015 11:23 pm

GeorgeTaylor wrote:

I can tell he was one of those kids who everyone else knows is well behaved,humble and well intentioned but his parents think he is a problem child. I see the same kind of kids in weird military families. Sorry I don't know his family but I just get a vibe like they were religious douches just based on how he took punishment from some people and still had a good attitude about it.

Dad- "Scotty your 18 and graduated from High School, Time to get a job if you want to live in this house and quit playing those damn video games!"

Scotty- "But Dad I just finished High School, can I have some time to figure out what I want to do with my life."

Dad- " Not under this roof.When I was your age I was working 80 hours a week. I didn't have time for games. If you want to keep living in this house you gotta pay me rent."

I absolutely despise people who do their kids that way. I could be totally wrong but I have a feeling im not......

If Hacker would have lived he would have ended up with a nice wife and two kids and a good job as a aircraft mechanic and a paid off truck. I honestly feel that in my heart.

On the brightside he is in heaven getting to play the Nintendo NX suckas!

This...made me cry a little somehow...